- Kylie Sprott
Feel the fear
Every now and then, a feeling of fear creeps in. I wonder what I have done and whether or not this was actually a good idea. It all happened very quickly and I sometimes marvel at my absolute confidence that this was the right thing to do.
When I bought the flat, I was caught up in a huge wave of sentimentality about Rothesay, Scotland and my ancestors. I knew the old tenement building, I knew the street and I had been to Rothesay and the Isle of Bute twice. I had seen some photos of the flat's interior online and I was confident that it was going to be a sound decision. Supremely confident! Just ask my family.
However, I was also expecting more decorating than renovating. So the scope of repairs and the amount of work that is required to get the flat into decent shape is definitely more than I anticipated. That is sometimes a bit scary, if I am entirely honest with myself.
I am reminded of the book by Susan Jeffers, "Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway".
This book is a bit of a game changer and one that I have always tried hard to remember when things get a bit hard. Essentially Jeffers helps you to understand that everyone has fears and worries that can stop them from progressing and reaching for the things that they really want in life. This book teaches you how to take uncertainty and turn it into action. It helps you to stay positive - and it makes you embrace fear rather than avoiding it. The only way to overcome anything is to try.
There are quite a few things in my favour that help me to push through the fear. Firstly, I have two amazing co-pilots on this journey in Trish and Shaun. They are absolutely a God send and I am so lucky that they are helping me to navigate the renovations. Someone was smiling on me when I walked into The Green Interiors in Rothesay back in June.
Secondly, I only have to look at some of the beautiful photos of Rothesay, Bute and the Kyles of Bute to smile and know that this part of the world is pretty special. I recently discovered the work of photographer Paul Paterson, and that has definitely helped to remind me of how wonderful this adventure is!
To check out more of Paul's work, click here:
Thirdly, I love to look at the photos of the progress that is happening in my wee flat. I have a vision of what it will look like when it is finished and I think it is going to be just gorgeous. I am so looking forward to showing it to my family and friends.
This photo that Trish sent me from the flat the other day just reminds me of the magnificent view and makes me feel happy. The view is one of the best things about the flat and I don't think I will tire of that. It just makes me more curious about Bute and all of the places there that I am yet to discover.
So, it might be a case of mild lunacy - or quite possibly one of the best decisions of my life. I am still betting on the latter.